Around, and between me.

High and Low.

2011-09-17T19:58:00.000-07:00

Don't leave me high..
Don't leave me dry..

Pasti pernah denger lirik lagu ini kan? High and Dry, Radio Head. Such a steady words, steady song. Now I'm feelin... Lil' bit different. High, and Low. Disaat gue lagi seneng dan diatas, forget about anything that make me feel soooooooo deppresed, sesuatu yg bikin gue sedih dateng lagi.. Dan CRASH ANYTHING. I've been forget about you for a while, Mr. Broken Heart All The Time. Udah lupa, eh dateng lagi.. Gimana bisa lupa? Yaaaa.. Udahlah. Sekarang gue coba jalanin idup baru, lebih baik, koreksi diri, dan jalanin. Ga selamanya orang jahat itu harus jahat kan? Ga mungkin ada orang yang gak bisa berubah. Semuanya bisa. Termasuk gue. Someday, you'll gonna realize.. Semuanya bisa dimulai dari 0 lagi, walaupun hati lo udah mati rasa, tapi ga ada yang ga mungkin. Tapi semuanya ga bisa dipaksa. Mungkin emang udah ga bisa, so? Hadapin. Kenangan itu jangan pernah lo lupain, tapi jangan selalu diinget. Cuma simpen dalam hati aja. Jangan pernah lo lupain orang yang pernah ada di hati lo, karena gimana pun dia, siapapun dia, dia pernah ngisi hari-hari lo dan buat lo tersenyum :). Buat kenyataan kedepannya bisa lebih baik, bukan lebih buruk. Lo bisa maju Fal, lo bisa. Gue percaya!This song, really show what I feel. Gue. PASTI. Bisa. MOVE ON.

Someday you're gonna realize
One day you’ll see this through my eyes
By then i wont even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't

I know
You don’t really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long,
Won't take long

Cause someday, someones' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday,someones' gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday..

Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down, and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye..

Cause someday, someones' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday,someones' gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday..

Cause someday, someones' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday,someones' gonna take your place
ooooh One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won’t even miss you
Someday, I know someones gonna be there

Someday, someones' gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someones' gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday...
Goodbye, my true love..

New life, new journey.

2011-06-25T12:29:00.000-07:00

Bloggy, its been a long time i didn't wrote in here. sup? Ah, did I've told you abt Aditya Rizky Mazaya? My present boyf. Oh no, my husband. Future. Really, gue selalu nanya sama dia, 'gue cewe lo apa bukan sih dit?' soalnya gue bingung, gue sama dia jadian ga pake tembak2an. dijalanin doang. Tiap gue tanya kaya gitu, jawaban dia cuma 'maunya apa? Lo cewe gue, istri gue, bini gue'. UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Dit, ga inget apa dulu lo jahat sama gue? Terus lo minta maaf, gue ga tau keadaan lo sober apa engga minta maaf ke gue. Tapi gue akuin, gue goblok dalam masalah kaya ginian dit. Gue gatau lo serius apa engga. Gue trauma dit, trauma.

one in stay, two in the other

2011-04-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

just like the the tittle, i just can say that's what i feel.

My recent life.

2011-03-23T02:05:00.000-07:00

Bloggy, miss you. I don't know where to go now, I'm down. Gue baru ngerasain sakit hati yg kaya gini. Maaf curhat ya, cuma mau ngeluarin unek-unek. Gue ga mau cerita ttg ini sama banyak orang, lo doang hehe. Bloggy, gue ngerasain sayang yg parah banget sama orang, sama ucup. Gue kenapa ya? Tadi gue liat facebooknya dia, gue liat status-status dia dulu. Di comment sama lastest girlfriend dia. Kayaknya asiiiiik banget dia sama mantannya itu. Sama gue kayanya ga gitu. Di facebook jarang dia ngehiasin wall gue. Ga ada kayaknya malahan. Gue deactive facebook ga ya? Sakit hati gue, ga bohong. Lebay ga sih gue? Nggak kan ya, masalah hati gak ada yg lebay. Ini rasanya apa banget sih, sakit banget. Lucu gak sih gue dari tadi nangis di cyber? I'm lucky that nobody saw me cry. Gue ga mau nunjukin gue nangis. Gue bisa tegar. Gue sayang sama dia bloggy :( Gue ga mau kehilangan dia. Mulai dari sekarang gue mau ngurangin ambekan gue ke dia, ngurangin egois gue ke dia. Gue bebasin dia main aja deh skrg. Gapapa gue ga dapet kabar, ga bisa jalan sama dia atau apa. Yang penting dia masih punya gue kan ya? Iyaaaaaaa :( bloggy gue ga tahan sumpah.. Kok gini banget ya :( Kasih saran dong please gue ga kuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat :(( :"( gue nyerah sama rasa sakit yg gue rasain sekarang. Nyerah. Gue sayang banget :""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""(((((((((((((((((

Yusuf Hamid Badjeber

2011-02-11T01:13:00.000-08:00

Tay, me love you like crazy. I just do. No matter what, I just wanna be with you. Forever, and ever. FYI, kamu kadang ngeselin, ga pernah ngabarin aku :""( tapi ya aku sabar aja deh. Ga mau jauh2 dr kamu tay, sumpah. Kamu ngeselin, bikin aku kangen mulu. Tay, jgn bikin aku cape ya. Me love you, much. I swear.

UAS: U Are Sucks!

2010-11-28T23:17:00.001-08:00

Little time to spent, have a crush on you in a short time. You changed the situation and I'm melted. HOW CAN? HOW CAN? You made me felt like I'm the one that made you comfortable. Can you just repeat? REPEAT PLEASE. Just once. For me :(

Hello, Elcrush♡

2010-11-03T03:03:00.000-07:00

Bloggy:) Howdy? just for information, I sat beside a boy I've called eLCrush. He's my new boyfie: p quite a while I did not post here. AAAA really miss you. mkay, I'm disturbed by the boy next to me. talk later, dude ♡

hey 2010, be nice and welcoming 2011 :)

2010-10-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

hello blog, are you there? hum im just lil bit missin you, have i posted my Adam Prireza yet? nope. last post was Ario. HAHA i dont even care about him anymore. hes jerk. so i dont care. how was your life dude? did i told you that ill fight with UAN next year? HAAAA im gonna die soon. can you imagine how my life next year? busy. busy. busy. like now. i hate this! really. but im gonna free as soon im graduate ;p wish me luck! love, Thifal.

2009-11-30T07:42:00.000-08:00

All I've done just to make you smile, all i need is to be with you

nothings that i can say

love you, Ario Nugroho ;)

Affinity - Red Car Wire

2009-10-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

Did it hurt when you fell down from heaven?

It's stupid to use the words others

Spent time to achieve

When the words that we're needing

Are inside us all somewhere

Waiting for rescues

They need to be free It's a lie not to listen

A sin, pessimistic when

Things that we need to say

Fall through the cracks

Like I love you, I miss you

I hate life with out you

And where have you been my love

I want you back.

So I don't feel alone in the world,

And baby yeah you're hard to get over,

We're older, it's just a little lie we tell all ourselves,

In itself, promise me, let's never get older.

So I don't miss the feeling of "left in the cold"

And this feeling of healing has long since been old

I find times when I'm missing the times you convinced me

I don't need somebody to hold my hand softly and tell me she's wishing

I wished she was with me cause I know now I'm drifting

I'm cleansed yet I'm missing the voice of an angel.

Leave it up to me to blow this whole thing aside and think of nothing like were nothing

But were young and alive

The clock on your wall isn't moving at all

Lets break out

Lets go out

Get a room

A hotel baby

I'm not saying that I'll love you forever

Hell who am I kidding

Cause were perfect together

Notice that when we talk I can't help but stutter

Your to perfect for words

I just want you forever.

Me

2009-10-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

Name : Thifal Filaily Dimastia
Birth : Surabaya, February 19, 1994
Place : East Jakarta
School/College : 53 Senior High School
Speak Languages : Indonesian, English, France
Interest In : travelling, browsing, japanese, panda ;p, etc.
Highly Detested : cockroaches, hypocrite, dirty, etc.
Relationship : SINGLE YES!
Website Youre In : Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, Plurk, etc.
Windows Live : thyfal--@hotmail.com
Yahoo!Messanger : thifalfilaily
Twitter : www.twitter.com/thifals
Myspace : www.myspace.com/thifal
Favorite Music : The Sequel, Bring Me The Horizon, P.Diddy, Daddy Yankee, Remioromen, Pitbull, Don Omar, T-Max, Mario, etc.

Describe Your Self :

selfish, lazy, moron, like travelling, love Panda, my lovely gaffy, who lost when i was 13 ;(

"Death" does exist

2009-10-15T05:08:00.000-07:00

From Raditya Dika's blog, a writer and now is reaching the stage, an actor.

I can't help to wonder: how will my funeral? Yes, sometimes I like fantasy, like what my funeral later. What many are coming? Did anyone come? What are they going to say about me? What memories they remember about me? Is anyone willing to drive a car, parking bother, to see me for the last time huh? Was there?

Sometimes I feel, death is a sensitive topic for us.
Something that "there" but always we deny its existence.
Living is constant for denying death.

We live in this world as if death didn't exist. We ate, we joked, we karaoke, we fell in love. We forget about death. We are too busy with our distraction. But it's there. And when it hits, it hits hard. I've lost my grandmother. That's all. My aunt lost. That's two times. But I never feel this sad to lost this one. my friend. don't know why. Maybe because I lost my grandmother when I was a kid? Or maybe I'm not too close with my aunt? Or maybe, my friend, which I think smart, clever, good, was invincible but in the end could also be called as the Almighty? I don't know.

Home from the funeral, driving the car alone, I feel small. I feel I must make something out of life. This agency loaned. Each breath is a breath again approaching death. We have more to work, enjoy life more, more to take a chance. Life is just once. Would be a pity to waste. so we wrote. I have to enjoy life.

And, maybe one day I was going to die, but I want to make something that wouldn't be die. Chuck Palahniuk Said, "The goal is not to life forever, but to create something that will." Life continues. With anything.

I also don't want to be forgotten.
I don't want to just become a name that just disappear.

The name displayed on some sort of headstone, which may at first frequented,
long but less and less. Until in the end just before the fasting month.
Name in a mossy headstone. Obsolete. Odor. Feared passers.

And when life, I do not want to be a kind soul who meet this earth,
crowded city,
eat together, drink, defecate, spoke. For what?

I want to be special.
Or, I want to die special.

Ma Test ;(

2009-10-14T08:26:00.001-07:00

Je passe en revue maintenant. trop lourd! Je fatigué. et trop de choses à apprendre. Je venu à écrire ici. heureuse? moi aussi. Toutefois, alors que je fatigué comme ça, personne ne m'a soutenu. renversa! ;(

Don't Blame Indonesians and Muslims!

2009-10-14T03:55:00.000-07:00

too sad. too pathetic. today, me and my friends are planed to go to bali
June next year. yes, postponed until next year because december they have their own event. and I opened news about bali. then opened news about Bali bombing in 2002 and 2005. I read the comments of each person. they blamed Indonesia and Muslim. instead I don't received, but it wasn't Muslim and Indonesia's mistakeness. that was terrorist fault who made the Bali bombing. pathetic.

The truth is Ba'asyir, Amrozi, Azahari, Noordin M Top who behind this Bali bombing is Malaysian nasionalist, they are simply to make Indonesia and Muslims looks bad. why don't they bombing their own country? so they don't made the Indonesians blamed.

but we are able to relief, because the perpetrators of the Bali bombing have been arrested. HORAY! The Australian Government appreciates the performance of police forces in exposing acts of terrorism in Indonesia. Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd thanked the government and the authorities in Indonesia have revealed that the terrorist network of Noor Din M Top. "I want to thank the Indonesian government for what they are doing so far," Mr Rudd said as quoted by ABC.net.au.

Nah! that's the relief. Indonesia cleared of terrorists. i hope they don't make any trouble again in Indonesia, so that we can live in peace. HEHEHE :D

the most beautiful places in the world to visit

2009-10-12T03:07:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy :) i really missing youuuuuu :) howr u? had a nice day without me? i don't think so ahaha. so, how is it going? oh I forgot you can't talk, i'm going crazy with my test this week! tomorrow, i had a geography and french language test. AHHH don't make a maniac out of me!! I'm insane -___-

OH ! i would love to tell you a little about Macau. Macau is the Venetian Asia, thats the cool place to visit. but I suggest you choose Bali for a vacation, because Bali is a very beautiful place, where you can surf in a friendly wave, beautiful sunset, and greetings from friendly Indonesians people. Bali also entered into the most 100 most beautiful places in the world, with Komodo Island. Last holidays I visited Bali, and I saw a beautiful sunset at Kuta Beach. many foreign tourists from various countries. I miss Bali :D

ma vie, ma propre vie, leur vie

2009-09-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

hello bloggy :) Ça va? I've been really missed post in here. as always i broke my promise with you to continued my lastest post. sorry, because i'm really tired this week and i had to learn japanese, english and french at the same time. its too heavy, isnt it? aah i dont care. how about your day bloggy? i dont even think about your day without me AHAHAHAH kiddin. aaaaaaaah ngantuk. i gotta go sleep, dont be sad ahaha :D

Ça va?

2009-09-09T04:31:00.000-07:00

hello bloggy :) r u doin well? now i'm at my auntie's home. i'll go with her family and my mom too. i had a promise with my friend, Ryu, to online at 7 p.m .. but i've been here for a while :( i'll countinue my post later.. at 9 p.m ok ;p see you there :)

J'ai essayé,

2009-08-28T05:30:00.000-07:00

Bonjour bloggy ;) Ça va? Oui, J'ai passé toute ma journée seul, aaah i.d.c, Parfois, je sentais la vie devient difficile quand je sentais que je suis un solitaire. embarrassant. J'ai essayé, Je vais tendre la main. Je vais atteindre ma rêve. ;) J'étais fatigué, au revoir :))))))

Goodbye, Mbah :((

2009-08-04T03:39:00.000-07:00

tau lagu Tak Gendong kan? pasti tau. tau siapa yg bawain lagu itu? pasti tau laaaaaah yakan. Urip aka Mbah Surip was passed away ;(( Innalilahi Wainnailaihi Radjiun. dia meninggal pada hari Selasa, tanggal 4 Agustus 2009 pada usia 60 tahun. hoaaaaaaaah baru aja namanya melejit ya? udah pergi aja huhu lagunya sederhana tapi orang seneng aja gitu dengerinnya. liriknya ada2 aja. bisa banget bikin orang ketawa. genrenya pop reggae. ckck yaa kita doain mudah2an dia tenang disana :)

Oke bloggy, kangen juga ya udah lama ga ngepost. hampir 2 bulan gue ga ngepost in elo blog heheheh (lebay). howr you? everything doin' well? pastilah ya hehe. yaa beginilah sibuknya gue kebanyakan tugas baru2 masuk sekolah. ditambah lagi guru gue banyak banget yang bikin kesel. ya gapapa lah. gue bakal buktiin sama mereka kalo gue bisa jadi lebih baik tahun kedua ini di SMA. doain gue ya bloggy? gue tau lo pasti selalu dukung hehe

butuh berbulan2 untuk memutihkan badan butuh sehari untuk menghitamkannya

2009-06-21T23:33:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO BLOGGY!!! whats up? are you allright? 'allright' hahaha korban iklan. okay then we go to the topic.

sesuai sama titlenya, itu kenyataan sekarang hahaha gue AGAK iteman. kemaren gue berenang di Ocean Park, BSD (hihi kurang jauh kata nyokap gue). with my uncle, my aunt, their daughter and my little sist. ya tuhaaaaaan padahal gue udah nyari tempat yang adem tapi tetep aja item astaga. padahal butuh berbulan2 gue untuk mutihin ;(( pulang renang gue langsung ke salon sama tante gue, wanita butuh perawatan apalagi abis renang gitu kaaan zz abis dari salon gue balik dan begitu selanjutnya..

disappointed, laughed, cried

2009-06-19T00:41:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my beloved bloggy, howdy? hehe udah lama yaaa ga ngepost hehe apa kabarrrrrrrrrrr? eh iya gue lupa lu ga bisa ngomong

bingung saya mau ngomong apa, terlalu banyak yang mau gue omongin ;(( kuat kaga lu dengerin curhatan gue? (sembari mendengarkan lagu vierra) oh gak kuat, yaudah sedikit aja deh ya. kemaren rabu gue jalan sama temen2 gue (Tika, Tania, Okta, Jengkol, Popon, Manda). ngerayain ultahnya Tania sama Tika gitu deh hehehe TUA LO BERDUA!! ;p. oh iya hari ini ada acara galang dana gitu buat vocalist Seems Like Yesterday, Brutz. lengkapnya liat flyer dibawah ini deh

Charity For Brutz, Bugs Cafe, Pondok Indah. June 19 2009

acara ini NIHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! gue udah bilang sama temen2 gue buat dateng, TAPIIIIIIIIIIII???? wtf lah bodo amat zz gue gak bisa dateng soalnya gak ada barengan HAHAHAHA (malesin banget ya alasannya?) ckckck babi abis lah. alhasil gue kayaknya dirumah aja nih seharian seperti anak2 baik lainnya. boring? BANGET. badmood? BANGET. andaikan gue punya cowok ya pasti gak akan sebosen ini hahahaha malesin ya hidup2 gue akhir2 ini gue rasain ;(( yaaaaaa tapi life must go on lah, masih ada waktu, masih ada lain hari, masih ada jalan yang masih panjaaaaaaaaaaaang, yegak? hihi fighting!!

"the greatest gift is not found in a store under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends"

2009-05-22T02:52:00.000-07:00

"Friends are like melons; shall I tell you why? To find one good you must one hundred try"

huaaaaaaaaaaa :'( nice quote . i just wanna have a bestfriend to accompany me :( punya sih gue punyaaaaaaaa!! namanya Ayi huhuhuhu Engaged loh skrg gue di facebook sama dia hahaha wtf. jealous huh? you should. emang yang namanya nyari sahabat itu susah banget yegak? mau gue kasih tau kiat-kiat dapet sahabat yang baik? okay here we go

1. FIRST! dekatilah dia yang kamu anggap bisa menjadi sahabat dekat, kamu korek-korek dulu informasi tentang dia. anaknya baik gak? anaknya friendly gak? anaknya bocor gak? anaknya culas gak? (for this one, kayaknya gue mesti ngaca dulu hahaha)

2. KEDUA! sering2 deh ngobrol sama dia. ajak dia bercanda, main kek kerumah dia atau dia yg main ke rumah lo (yang satu ini terdengar kaya nyari pacar, tapi bodo amat lah)

3. KETIGA! coba ajak dia curhat. mungkin bisa aja lo udah mikir, "wah ini anaknya baik nih, kayaknya seru deh" tapi siapa tau dia malah suka ngomongin lo di belakang. trus mungkin aja lo mikir "wah pasti safety nih rahasia gue sama dia" eh tapi dia malah ngebocorin rahasia lo sama temennya dia yang lebih deket. jadi lo coba coba dulu ajak dia curhat, bakal respon gak dia sama lo

4. KE EMPAT! amati responnya. dia perhatian gak sama lo, dia respon lo gak? kalo dia ngasih respon lebih yang bikin lo percaya dia bisa ngasih hiburan ke lo, berarti dia beneran temen lo. kalo dia cuma "oh" atau "hmm" aja, perlu lo pikir berkali-kali deh

5. KELIMA! sahabat itu selalu menerima kekurangan sahabatnya, jadi kalo misalnya ya lo tuh punya kejelekan bangun siang, atau punya kejelekan suka lama boker, pasti dia sabar2 aja nungguin lo bangun tidur lah atau nungguin lo B.A.B di kamar mandi hahaha(what the?)

6. KE ENAM! sahabat gak menjerumuskan sahabatnya sendiri juga. misalnya nih lo seorang cewe yang gak ngerokok, trus sahabat lo itu ngerokok. trus lo diajak buat ngerokok sama dia, berarti lo harus mikir wah ini anak malah bikin lo ancur, so jauhin orang kaya gini nih!

7. KETUJUH! (udeh tujuh aje setdeh) make quote "best friends never end" to be a truth! jangan karena hal-hal kecil aja lo adu bacot dan terus berantem. sayang banget kalo lo punya sahabat lo sia-sia in gitu aja.

SO SEKARANG UDAH BISA MILIH KAN, SIAPA YANG BISA JADI SAHABAT LO?

6 hari di rumah sakit

2009-05-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

postingan pertama nih HAHAHAHA seneng (wtf)

, gw hari ini keluar dari rumah sakit setelah DBD dan menghirup udara bebas hehe lebay ga sih? engga kok engga, gw cuma nikmatin aja keluar dari rumah sakit setelah 6 hari gw cuma duduk makan minum obat dan disuntik ! wesetdeh yang namanya disuntik gw tuh tiap pagi jam 6 (rutin) dan skrg gw jadi kebiasa sama jarum suntik. rasanya disuntik, jadi gak takut lagi deh sama yg namanya suntikan.

hebat kan? dari awal infusannya sebelah kiri jadi sebelah kanan gara2 tangan kiri gw bengkak, ga tau kenapa. waktu mau dipindah ke sebelah kanan infusannya, pas jarum suntik+jarum suntik plastik nya mau dimasukin, nadi gw sempet ilang dan jarum suntiknya nyangkut beberapa lama di tangan gw tanpa infus. bisa bayangin gak? gue aja ga bisa, nyeri bo! perih bgt! di foto tuh yang sebelah kanan bekas suntikan gagal(ironis), sebelah kanan yang berhasil (y). dan ini foto waktu gw di rawat

dekil ye? kusem ye? najis ye? he eh geli gw juga. rasanya mau gw obrak abrik nih muka hahahaha abessssssssssss tai nya ckckck. udeah malu gw.

Hello World :)

2009-05-18T19:09:00.000-07:00

newbie nih! baru buat blog hahahaha. kalo kata temen-temen gw sih "hari gene baru buat blog?" so i'll say "so FUCKING whaaaaaaaaaaattttt? situ oke?" yak stop sampe sini aja, iseng doang buat ginian mah, buat curhat doang hahaha :)